Just got back from Church.. I'm teaching Sunday School today. Phew.. i lost my mood in everything.
The story of Jonah that I taught today, speaks a lot for myself. You cant hide from God's presence, you cant runaway from God's love. He knows where you were, He knows where you are now, and He knows where you gonna be 2morrow. And no time frame cant hold back His love. I sent Jedi, Travis' lyrics: [Flower in the Window], and put on the subject: i want u back. And since this morning he hasn't called or sms me. I dont know what to think.. My dad's at home now.. and I cant get any peace around.. Got some fight with my sister, she scratch me real good, give a big punch on my elbow, kick me several times, and then cry out loud when I get her back. My mom gets mad at me for doing that, and my whole head feelin' like it's gonna blow!!! How come people just feel free to do what they want to another person? Coz they've been treated that way? Then what kind of evil world is we're living right now? My friends doesn't treat me right. They left me, maybe coz I've been giving them lots of problem. Jedi doesnt care much. All he thinks of is his relationship, his life, his peace, his heart. He feels free to do whatever he wants to, and doesn't want to take the risk. But above all that, just cant stop myself from loving him. I guess that's an unconditional love, huh? My hand and fingers are shaking writing today's post. Dont know why.. maybe my peak of distress is comin' sooner than I think. I hear this sermon from Joel Osteen 'bout the favor of God, living in divine favor. It shocked me up a bit. If I can ever convince my mind to get along with God's promises, everything will fall in it's place perfectly. But before that, tribulation will hit, coz it means I'll be handing my dreams and hopes to God, and let Him take over. Will I ever learn to submit??